User blog:Zordon123456789mlw7/Okay I just felt like I needed to say this...

Okay so as most of you know, I came back on Monday (i think) after not having been on for almost 2 years. An while I still have no clue if I'll be staying or not (but i really hope I do), I felt it was just important that I air things out before I continue in my possible return. so obviously, you all have changed, which is to be expected, I mean it would be foolish of me to come back and think you were all the same people. But despite that, I'm still trying to adjust to how different everything feels. I just need everyone to know that if anything I do ever bothers them, like even a little, you should just straight up tell me (hopefully through pm, if you would be kind enough to do so) because to be honest, I'm really lacking in social skills and while I really just want to fit in among you (in time of course, I'm not just saying "waaaaaah, accept me") I really struggle due to having an incredibly difficult time really tuning in on others' perception of me and most of all just how to interact with you. this may all sound kinda corny or weird or whatever, but it' just that... my experience on this website- in this community- have been some of the best in my life. My past experiences hold a very dear place in my heart. and part of the reason why it was so hard to me to return before (aside from ton of work, but that's a different issue entirely) was that I just felt so overwhelmed with the fear that coming back might bring negative experiences that would wind up tainting my past ones and wind up making me feel like I'd lost a part of myself. But coming back here made me realize the while, of course I will have some bad experiences, the joy and camaraderie I'll get from rejoining the community will be much more important. Overall, I just want to be one of you guys again, and I jut really hope you guy will be willing to eventually accept me, even if I do have an annoyingly broken keyboard. (I'm trying to find a place to find it at the moment, please bear with me, I'll have to get it fixed eventually).

On a final note, i anyone would like to give me advice on how to improve my social skills I'd really appreciate it. Like A LOT. I'm currently trying to improve them via internet articles, but real people would be so much better. I additionally apologize for being so open about this, but I really saw no other way to articulate myself. I'm sorry.